November 2007


I can’t believe it! I’m going home on Monday.

Geneva isn’t home. Of course not. I’ve never lived there.
I’ve never had a house there, or even a flat. I couldn’t afford one!
So why do I feel like I’m going home?
Why does my heart well up when I think of the city, the Saleve
towering in my mind’s eye, St Pierre Cathedral casting a shadow over
Lac Leman?

How can an author invest so much of his life in an imaginary place,
real and yet unreal, imaginary yet true?
Why give yourself to your dreams so completely that the real world
melts before your hopes?
Is this the artistic spirit?

No! Surely not. There is no one artistic spirit.
Every creative person has their own view of creativity.

In my case it is creation from nothing. I hack the concepts, the
characters, the scenes, the dialog out of nothing, out of pure
research and imagination. Other writers crystalise their emotional
lives into words.
Yet we all have to find that emotional crystal that encapulates our dreams.
That is what I have learned this week, thanks to Chris Hoskins.

The first question for the wriiter is: What is my point of view
character feeling at this moment? What is at stake, from his point of
view?

If I can answer this question at every line in Time Crystal then I
have done as much as any writer can hope to do.

I’m going home with a bunch of 17 year old young people.
When they’ve left I’m driving up into the Alps to find the spot where
Alex and George finally come to Earth.
It’s costing me a week and 500 dollars for perhaps one paragraph in
TC. Is it worth it?

Of course. I’m going home! That’s worth any cost. It’s holy ground!
I’ll stay in a CERN Hostel room for a week. Maria and other characters
stay there. What authentic materail I can gather, even it if is only a
single true word. I’ll pick up all sorts of details that will add to
the credibility. Truth is beyond cost.

That applies to writing in general. The cost is irrelevant. All that
matters is the outcome. If it’s good then it’s worth whatever it
costs. If it’s bad then forget it. I’ve spent my life on this project.
Not just my life, but that of my wife and family too. Compared to that
sacrifice, money has no meaning.

Data Storage System Overflow
(Version created 29 November 2007)
Danny Kissov spun his chair, a dinghy coming about. “I’m done. You’re in charge now, Seline.” He stood up, jib unfurled. A pain, heavy as a sail boom, thumped inside his skull. He lurched and beached against the desk, waiting for the room to stop reeling.
Seline’s radar turned to scan him. “You all right?”
He nodded, wincing. “Just a bit tired. We haven’t been sleeping too well recently.”
“Go home, Danny. Go to bed.”
“I’m going to see if Maria’s in the Globe. She was supposed to phone at nine when she came out of the clinic. At least, I think–”
Seline’s frown entangled him. “You didn’t let her go to the antenatal clinic this morning on her own? Why didn’t you call me? We could have swapped shifts.”
“She didn’t…I don’t think you’re quite ready to run the start-up shift yet. Do you?”
“I guess not. Why don’t you phone her?”
“I have. She didn’t answer.”
“Why not?”
“I don’t know. It’s not like her, not to phone me. You sure you can you cope here?” He cast off his mooring.
“Sure. You’ve done all the hard work.”
His wind restored, he launched himself away from the desk. “Call me if you need me.” He navigated a course through the visitors as they bobbed around the Run Co-ordinator’s desks, their little beacon-eyes blinking with excitement. Danny gathered speed as he sailed before the wind, up the long shimmering ATLAS Control Room until, half-way to the door, a flat computer generated voice crackled from the overhead speakers.
“Level Zero Alarm.”
Danny Kissov furled his sails, let himself drift. Level Zero Alarm? Minor fault. Shouldn’t be a problem. Seline will be able to cope with that easily. Nice easy start to her first run. Wonder what kind of error it is, exactly? When he reached the door he hove-to, waiting for the second half of the message.
“Data Storage System Overflow,” the synthetic speech droned.
Data Storage System Overflow? Never heard of one of those. Danny shielded his eyes from the glare of the overhead lights and squinted down the room, trying to bring Seline into focus. So it won’t be that straightforward for her. Still she’ll know how to find the procedure to handle it.
His unsteady gaze finally found Seline’s face. White pointed nose and chin sharp against severe black hair. Hunched shoulders tense. Fixed unblinking eyes out-staring a computer screen. Half a dozen visiting scientists were swirling around, leaning over her chair. She didn’t move. The visitors pushed forward, pointing at her screens, talking excitedly. Her anxious eyes darted rapidly between screens, hands, keyboards, faces.
What’s the matter with you, Seline? Why don’t you look for the procedure? If it was me I’d search the web site. You probably won’t need to do anything much except acknowledge the error.
After a few seconds Seline turned and scanned the room. When she saw Danny she compressed her lips, raised her hands, shook her head.
God, you’re making a meal of this aren’t you? This isn’t like you, Seline. What’s happened to you today? You’re normally so calm and capable. Is it because it’s your first time as Run Co-ordinator? It’s not because you know how worried I am about Maria, is it?
He leaned against the door, trying to calm the tired waves of nausea sweeping over him. Seline’s dark hair flicked out as her head began to twist from screen to screen. More visitors crowded around. One reached forward and began typing into one of her keyboards, taking control. She looked at Danny again with a pathetic muted appeal for help.
That’s it, isn’t it? You’re just trying to stop me from going and finding out what’s happened to her. This is ridiculous. You’re perfectly capable of handling this. Just get on with it! He glanced at the clock.
09:38
Where is Maria now? She did say she was going to call me at nine, didn’t she? Or was it ten?
The voice was still droning, over and over: “Level Zero Alarm. Data Storage System Overflow.” Danny closed his eyes, the lids dropping like shutters around a fire. He tried to cut out everything else, to sink inside himself, to remember what Maria had said the previous evening. Did she say nine or ten? If it was ten then I don’t need to go. I can stop and make sure Seline sorts this problem out. I’ve got to remember. He forced himself to concentrate, to relive the scene in their kitchen last night.
# # # #
Maria is cooking supper. I’m sitting at the table trying not to show I’m exhausted.
“I want you to choose his name, Danny.” She lifts a saucepan lid. “Is there a name that really means a lot to you?”
You bet there is. “Would you mind if it was Bulgarian?”
She dips a ladle, holds her long chestnut hair aside, samples the sauce. “Of course not, darling. Whatever you want. Okay, it’s ready. Here we go.” She licks her lips, ladles sauerkraut. “I wonder what the obstetrician will say?”
“Is the antenatal clinic tomorrow? God! Why didn’t you remind me? Do you want me to come with you?” I’m trying to work out how I can get to the clinic and also run the overnight shift. “Pity it’s tomorrow. First run of the season always gives problems. You know these scientists. Do lots of repairs and upgrades during the winter shut-down.”
“You’re the only one who can handle a start-up, Danny.”
“The only fit one, anyway. Thank God José Rodriguez is off with the vomits. It’ll give me a chance to shine tonight, ready for the interview next week. I’ve got to get that job, Maria. We’re going to need the money when the baby comes. How do you think he is, really? I could call Seline and ask her to come in early tomorrow–”
“No!” She bangs a plate of veal on the table. “You don’t need to call her. Baby’s fine. Everything’s fine. Help yourself.” She sits at the table.”I’ll call you when I come out of the clinic at nine and let you know what’s happened. Is that all right?”

Yes, that’s what she says. “When I come out of the clinic at nine.”
Standing with his back to the ATLAS Control Room door, Danny tried to raise the anchors of his eyelids but they seemed to be caught in some underwater obstruction. He couldn’t pull himself back to the present. Only when his head fell forward did he managed to tear his eyes open. Christ, I’m falling asleep standing up.
# # # #
He gripped the door handle, blinked his eyes free of blur, looked down the room. Seline was staring at him again, apparently unable to cope. If you mess up on your first shift it’s going to make me look incompetent for recommending you, and you know it. He turned and glanced through the long blue translucent Control Room window at the huge round shape looming dark against the pale spring sky. Sorry Maria. It should only take a few seconds to sort this out. Then I’ll come and see if you’re in the Globe. He sighed, pushed himself away from the door, tacked back down the room. I’ve got to calm Seline down, give her back her confidence. You can see that, can’t you? If I don’t, and she messes up this shift, I’ll be held responsible for recommending her. Then I’ll never get that Senior Run Co-ordinator’s job.

Data Spike

(Version created 19 November 2007)

“Are you Michael Zhang?”

The little man didn’t answer. Francesco Romani stood beside his chair and sniffed. It obviously was him. No wonder there aren’t any visitors down this end of the room. Michael’s delicate little hand pushed his mouse across the desktop. Too busy to speak to me. Francesco saw a pointer move on one of his screens. A button labelled STOP RUN flashed. A counter fell from 234 to zero.

“I’m busy.” Michael’s balding little head never moved.

“But surely you could spare me a couple of minutes, Dr. Zhang?” Francesco let his impatience resonate in his voice.

Michael changed a box labelled RUNTYPE from Commissioning to Calibration.

Francesco sniffed again. Unique aroma. So the rumour’s true. He never washes.

Michael clicked START NEW RUN. The counter started again:

223, 227, 224

Michael finally condescended to swivel his chair. He glanced at Francesco’s stomach then looked up at his face with a frown which became slightly fearful as he recognised his visitor and stood up, going pale.

Time to put our relationship on a friendly footing. Francesco beamed, his huge paw engulfing Michael’s tiny hand. “Francesco Romani.” He was at least two heads taller than Michael. “So pleased to meet you, Dr. Zhang.”

Michael looked at him with a puzzled expression.

“I understand the Muon Spectrometer is on line now?” The chair sank beneath Romani’s weight.

“Yes, Professor, but we have just started calibrating it.”

Francesco looked round with wide eyes, as if searching for the others who made up the “we”, then looked at Michael with a twinkle, but he didn’t seem to see the joke.

“The rest of my team will be back soon,” Michael said hurriedly. “They’ve just gone for breakfast. I’m sure they won’t be long.” He glanced at the screen. Francesco followed his eyes.

The counter was still counting.

219, 221, 234

“No no, it is you I want to speak to.”

“Me?”

“Am I right in thinking you are of Irish nationality?”

“I can explain about that, Professor Romani. I was planning to renew my work permit next week–”

“Work permit?” Surely he doesn’t think I would be interested in such trivia? “No, that is of no interest to me, Dr. Zhang. Talk to our Human Resource Office about that. Look, I have a little favour to ask you. I am looking for an Irish scientist and you are the only one I can find. As you know, we don’t have many in CERN since Ireland is not yet a member state.” And if they’re all like you, I’m not sure we want too many.

“I’m not really a typical Irishman.”

Thank God for that.

“The only Irish things about me are my forenames and my place of birth. The rest of me is pure Chinese. Why do you need an Irish scientist specifically?”

“Do you know the new Irish Ambassador to the United Nations in Geneva?”

“No, I’m sorry. I don’t have much time for politics.”

Or bathing. “That doesn’t matter.” Francesco leaned forward and lowered his voice. I’ll have to tolerate the smell. “I have invited her Excellency Brigit Fitzpatrick to visit CERN this morning. I am very keen for Ireland to become a member, as I am sure you are also. Am I right?”

Michael shrugged. “I really don’t care. I’ve never had any affection for the land of my birth.”

Nor it for you, I should think. “Oh come come, Dr Zhang. You work in Cambridge now, don’t you? If Ireland was a member you could work for one of the Irish universities. You might even be able to lead your own particle physics department.”

Michael hesitated. “To be honest I don’t really think I would go back to Ireland even if the country did join. My future is in Cambridge and here in CERN.” Michael’s eyes flipped back to the event count ticking across the screen. Francesco couldn’t resist looking too.

227, 12987, 2656

Looks odd. Glad I’m out of all this technical stuff now. When you get to my age you’re better suited to administration. “I see,” Romani said. “Still I would deem it a great personal favour if you could just speak to Madame Fitzpatrick…” Francesco gave him the spiel but he could tell Michael wasn’t listening. His eyes and mind were fixed on the screen. “…explain to her the benefits of Ireland becoming a member from a scientist’s point of view. Would you do that for me?”

“Very well, Professor Romani.” Michael was still watching the event count.

2743, 2687, 2712

“So you will speak to her?”

“Yes, I’ll speak to her.”

“Excellent, Dr. Zhang.” Romani stood up. “Thank you very much. I will bring her over here later on this morning. Will you be here about ten-thirty?”

“Yes,” Michael nodded absently and began rapidly typing commands into a Mercator window.

Francesco warned the Run Co-ordinator that he would be bringing a VIP over later in the morning, walked through the ATLAS Control Building to the main door, held it open for a dark, unsmiling woman who had just run across the car park in the rain, and lit a cigarette. Sheltering in the doorway from the rain and the icy northeasterly wind, his tired eyes patiently searched the grey sky for some sign of the Sun as he thought about Michael Zhang. Will he do the business with the Ambassador? Pity there’s nobody else. They say he lives in a caravan. In the woods. Alone. I’m not surprised.

Note this was written when this web site was hosted by Google’s Blogger. It was to avoid the problem described below that I moved the site to WordPress in April 2008.

I’m updating chapters 1 to 3 with the latest versions. These are not the final versions, just the latest of many revisions.

The trouble with publishing new versions is that comments that people make become disconnected from the original text. I’m chaning the text but keeping the same page URL so taht links still work. It would be better if I created new pages, since then comments would stay with the original text.

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This is an archive, for interested students only.

“Excuse me. Would you mind please? I’m trying to…Thank you.”

Danny Kissov turned to see Seline Soubise push through the dozen visitors crowding around the Run Co-ordinator’s wide curving desks. She threw her coat over the back of a chair and flopped down beside him. “God, do we have to work with an audience?”

“Some of them have been here all night,” he said turning back to the Detector Control System window on one of his three computer screens.

“What? You mean you’ve let them stand up all night? Even the old ones? They’ll be getting thrombosis and dying on us! No wonder they look worn out, poor things. How’s ATLAS coming along?”

“It’s not my job to get chairs for visitors. It was hard enough getting all the sub-systems up and running. We had trouble with a couple of them so I haven’t–”

“What kind of trouble?”

“The Pixel software was out of date and two of the TRT control parameters were set wrong. The details are in the log. Nothing serious but it took a while to figure out what the problems were so I haven’t quite finished bringing up the Muon Spectrometer. I was just about to check that data was flowing across the Grid. Do you want to–”

“Sure, I’ll take over now. You go and have breakfast,” she said opening a Trigger and Data Acquisition System monitor window. “How did Maria get on at the clinic?”

With a stab of guilt Danny realised he had forgotten about that. He glanced at his watch. 9:37. But it was Maria’s fault, he told himself. She was supposed to phone him when she came out of the antenatal clinic at nine. “I’m just going to phone her,” he said as if he had been planning it all along. “Back in a moment.” He pushed his way through the crowd to the window, flipped open his mobile phone, pressed a button and waited for the connection.

“Hello, this is Maria Kissov. Sorry I can’t take your call–”

Danny snapped the phone closed and held it for a moment, moist in his sticky palm, staring through the translucent window at the huge round bulge of the Globe looming dark against the pale spring sky. She should be in there by now. Is something wrong? He felt guilty that he hadn’t gone with her to the clinic and he began to list the reasons. The first run of the season is the most difficult shift of the year. Many scientists have repaired and upgraded their sub-systems during the winter shut-down and this always creates problems. I’m the most experienced Run Co-ordinator. José Rodriguez is off with the vomits that are going round and Seline has never led a start-up. Maria said last night that the baby was fine and there’s no need for me to go with her this morning.

But even after he had reassured himself he still felt guilty. Where’s Maria now? She was due to open the Globe at 9:30. He went back to collect his jacket. “I’m going over to the Globe to see if Maria’s come back from the clinic,” he told Seline. “Call me if you need me.”

“Okay, Danny, but I’m sure I’ll cope. You’ve done all the hard work. But thanks.”

He was half way to the door when a computer generated voice echoed around the Control Room: “Level Zero Alarm. Data Storage System Overflow.”

Danny slowed his pace as the computerized voice repeated the warning in French. Level Zero alarms were very minor faults, not usually requiring any action by the operators. Never heard of a data storage system overflow, though. Not even sure exactly what might have caused it. When he reached the door he paused and looked back. The visitors were leaning over Seline’s desk and she was frowning at her screens, obviously unsure of what to do. When she saw Danny watching her she shook her head and raised both hands, palms upwards. Danny walked quickly back to her desk.

Mummy’s late, Maria told the baby as she waited for Sam and Catriona to cross the road then drove into the visitor’s car park. She told him almost everything. Daddy will be worried. Poor Daddy. He’s had to work all night. Maria herself had not slept much either but she didn’t want to complain. She parked her rusting old Citroen as near to the Globe as she could. She didn’t have time to go round the back to her official parking place. She should have opened the Globe fifteen minutes ago but the obstetrician had kept her talking. Still she felt better now. She knew exactly what the problem was and what she had to do about it. Not sure Daddy’s going to like it though.

She got out of the car and hurried across the car park towards the Globe of Innovation. She loved this building. The whole structure had a fragile, translucent, unworldly appearance. It reminded Maria of a delicate giant brown eggshell that had been cast out from some immense bird’s nest on the towering Jura mountains.

As she hurried across the Route de Meyrin she realised that one of the people waiting at the roadside looking through the fence at the Globe was Francesco Romani. He was on his mobile phone. Big boss waiting for Mummy. Oh dear. Mummy in trouble now. And she won’t be able to call Daddy. She wondered how the experiment was going. She knew Danny was worried about it but then he was a born worrier. Between ATLAS and the baby he was worrying himself to death.

“Good morning Professor Romani,” she said breezily as she unlocked the gate. “I’m sorry to keep you waiting. I was held up at the clinic.”

“That cannot be helped, my dear,” Francesco said. “Your Excellency may I introduce Maria Kissov, the Globe Exhibition Officer. Maria this is Her Excellency Brigit Fitzpatrick, Irish Ambassador to the United Nations.”

“Pleased to meet you Madame,” Maria said shaking Brigit’s hand and trying not to look down at the cleavage she was exposing. “Follow me please.” She turned on her mobile phone as she led the party up the wide tarmac drive towards the Globe.

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Michael Riley stared at the Mercator screen trying to work out what had happened. Event 219 at 09:34:23.27 showed a thick black track curving down across the inner parts of ATLAS, spawning secondary particles as it went and finally stopping inside the beam pipe near the Intersection Point. It was totally unlike any track Michael had ever seen.

Particle obviously entered from above. Clearly wasn’t generated inside ATLAS. Could only have been a cosmic particle. Secondary tracks densely packed. Must have been travelling very slowly. So it must have been massive. Secondary tracks taper down to a point. Particle obviously slowing down. Why? Only force acting on it is ATLAS’s magnetic field. So particle must have a magnetic charge!

The Introduction to his doctoral thesis immediately sprang into his mind. After working on it for three years he could remember every word and almost every reference.

PhD Thesis
Persistent Micro Black Holes
Michael Hamilton Riley
Dublin May 1997

Introduction
This Thesis examines the consequences of combining two ideas from modern physics, magnetic monopoles and black holes, to predict a new type of particle, persistent micro black holes.

Magnetic Monopoles
From his study of quantum mechanics Dirac[1] predicted the existence of a magnetic monopole, a particle containing a single magnetic charge in the same way that an electron contains a single electric charge. Grand Unified Theories of the origin of fundamental physical forces indicate that one or more magnetic monopoles might have been created during the early stages of the Big Bang. No such monopole has ever been observed but many theoreticians believe that there could be many in the Universe and that there must be at least one[2].

Black Holes
General relativity leads us to expect there are two types of black hole. Large ones such as those found at the centres of galaxies and very small ones such as might be created in high energy particle accelerators. Quantum theory predicts that the small ones would immediately evaporate by the process of Hawking Radiation[3].

Persistent Micro Black Holes
In this Thesis I will show that if a small black hole could contain a magnetic monopole then it would last for a measurable period before it evaporated. I conclude that its lifetime would depend on its magnetic charge but should be of the order of 100 minutes.

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[1] Dirac PAM “Quantized Singularities in the Electromagnetic Field” Proceedings of the Royal Society A 133 (1931) 60-72.

[2] See for example Bagoly Z, Lukacs B, Paal G “Monopole abundance from first-order GUT phase transition of the early Universe” Astronomische Nachrichten, 308,2 (1987) 143-148.

[3] Hawking SW “Particle creation by black holes” Nature 248 (1974) 30.

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Michael looked again at the particle track. What you would expect from a magnetic monopole. Came to rest inside the beam pipe. Might be near enough to the beams to absorb some high energy protons. Monopole might grow. Could even develop into a black hole! A cold shiver ran down his back. A black hole containing a magnetic monopole! Here was a unique opportunity to test his thesis but he also knew the experiment could be dangerous. If it comes out of the beam pipe and enters ATLAS it will cause extensive damage. But the knowledge gained would be worth it. Might even be able to use ATLAS to track the black hole and measure its mass, magnetic charge and lifetime.

His eyes narrowed. Should tell Kissov about this. But Michael knew that Danny Kissov would want to protect ATLAS. He’ll stop beam intersection and power ATLAS down hoping that the monopole won’t grow into a black hole. That would be a criminal waste of an opportunity. He decided to say nothing about it for the moment. If Kissov was doing his job right then he would find the track himself soon enough. And if he wasn’t and the monopole really did grow into a black hole then it would be too late to do anything to stop it.

Catriona stood in the car looking back down the road watching aeroplanes flying in and out of the airport. She was so angry with her mother she felt like kicking her car. Brigit had cancelled her flight as well as Sam’s. Typical. She expects us to stay here and help her just because she can’t manage on her own. I should have known she didn’t invite us over just for an Easter holiday. Well I’m going home next week whatever happens. I’ll ask Sam to lend me the money for a new ticket. I’ll go and stay with Aislyn’s family.

Catriona was still thinking what Aislyn would say about this when her mother said “Francesco, may I introduce Catriona, my daughter?” Brigit was walking down the Reception building steps beside a fat man in a dark suit, waving towards Catriona like a queen beckoning a courtier.

“Catriona, may I introduce Professor Romani,” Brigit said, “the Director General of CERN.”

The fat man leaned forward to kiss Catriona’s cheek. “Delighted to meet you, Signorina,” he said. “Please call me Francesco.”

The smell of tobacco on his breath made Catriona feel sick. Before he could kiss her she reached out and took his hand. “Hi,” she said, shaking his hand briefly.

Brigit scowled at her as she walked away across the car park beside Francesco.

“Come on Catty,” Sam said, taking her arm and leading her after them. “What d’you think of the Globe of Innovation?”

Catriona glanced at the huge dark brown wooden dome ahead of them on the other side of the main road. It rose high into the watery sky like a half-inflated balloon surrounded by grey concrete buildings and tall electricity pylons, short steaming chimneys and anonymous glass offices.

“I hate it,” she said. “I hate this whole place. It’s so ugly.”

“My, we are in a bad mood today,” Sam said. “The Globe isn’t ugly. And just look at those mountains. We could go skiing and–”

“There’s no way I’m staying here, Sam,” Catriona snapped as they waited at the roadside. “I don’t care what she says. I’m going home next week no matter what you do. Can you lend me the money for a ticket?”

A white car stopped at the black and yellow crossing. Sam waved thank-you to the pretty young lady driver but he didn’t answer the question.

This version of Chapter 1 was originally published on 11 August 2007. It is included here for reference, so the reader can see how a writer develops his work.

Genevans playfully call her The Peck on the Cheek. To Dr. Michael Riley La Bise felt more like the bite of a snow-leopard, for in his hurry to get to work he had foolishly left his hat and gloves in the caravan. The bitterly cold northeast wind chilled his thin body and numbed even his over-excited mind as he cycled through a cheerless dawn breaking over gently rolling, grapeless Swiss vineyards.

When he reached CERN’s Meyrin site his hands were so cold he could hardly grip his badge to show the security guard. He parked his bicycle and hurried into the glass-fronted office building, eager to get warm and start work. The ATLAS Control Room was already abuzz with excitement. This happened on the first run every spring and the start-up of the 2012 season, was no exception. Dozens of visitors crowded around the wide curving desks, eager to help the resident scientists and engineers trouble-shoot problems.

Nobody greeted the short, scruffy, balding Irish scientist as Michael walked, silent as a shadow, beneath the blue translucent windows that stretched all the way down one side of the long narrow room. He avoided all eye contact and his colleagues ignored him as usual. Even the visitors made no attempt to speak to him, as if somehow they couldn’t see him. Michael walked to his own desk near the emergency exit at the far end of the room and looked across at the Run Co-ordinator, trying to assess how the night shift had gone.

The Co-ordinator, Bulgarian engineer Danny Kissov, was obviously exhausted. His normally well-groomed thick brown hair was dishevelled. Large pouches of tiredness hung from his eyes and sagged over his sallow cheeks. His chin was propped on his cupped hands, his elbows planted firmly on his desk as he stared fixedly at his computer screens trying to work out why the Transition Radiation Tracker wouldn’t come on-line. Behind his chair four or five of the visitors were frowning over his shoulders making unhelpful suggestions.

Danny had been working hard all night to help the ten principal scientists to bring up each of the ATLAS sub-detectors one after another, difficult and intensive work, requiring enormous concentration. He was under added pressure from these visitors, but he couldn’t ask them to leave. Their universities had paid for and built the sub-detectors. They had a right to be here, even if they did make his job more difficult.

And there had been something else niggling away at the back of Danny’s mind all night, distracting his attention, adding to the pressure, although by the time Michael arrived Danny was so tired that he had almost forgotten what it was.

So Michael Riley sat and began to prepare for the day’s work, Danny Kissov continued to investigate the TRT problem, and the first time the two men communicated was about three hours later, just before nine o’clock, when a message flashed up on one of Michael’s screens:

Message from dkissov
Are you ready to bring up the Muon Spectrometer
now?
Reply Cancel

Michael clicked on Reply and typed Yes. He knew that all the other sub-systems were already live. Danny only had to activate Michael’s Spectrometer and ATLAS would be ready to start collecting data. Michael and Danny worked together for half an hour to bring the Spectrometer on-line, communicating electronically without a spoken word passing between them. The Spectrometer was almost fully functional when, just after nine thirty-four, Michael saw something odd.

He was monitoring the Trigger and Data Acquisition System when he noticed the rate of data production dramatically increase. Instead of getting around 200 events per second the Spectrometer began generating over 12,000. This rate lasted only for a few milliseconds and might not have been very significant had the rate returned to normal, but it didn’t. It came down off the peak and settled out at around 2,000 events per second, ten times more than expected.

Michael stood up. Danny was talking to the new Run Co-ordinator, Seline Soubise, who had just arrived to take over from him. He obviously hadn’t seen the problem. If he had there would have been pandemonium. Michael quickly sat down. He was intensely curious about this unusual and unexpected phenomenon and decided to investigate the cause without saying anything to Kissov, guided by some physical insight which warned him to act cautiously.
He began to search the Transient Data Store for high energy events. It took him only a few seconds to find what he was looking for. He stared at his screen, unable to believe his eyes, his mind racing.

La Bise finally dropped at about nine o’clock but she left a high fog hanging across the broad plain between the Jura Mountains and the Alps like a cold grey blanket. The pale spring Sun set about trying to lift this chilly coverlet and by nine thirty it was thin enough for him to shine down on Geneva, promising to bring some fine spring sunshine later in the morning.

But this prospect did nothing to improve the temper of the attractive woman who was gazing out of the rear window of a cream BMW as it drove through the expensive suburbs of northern Geneva. Even the extravagant torrent of blonde curls which cascaded around her handsome face could not conceal her simmering rage. Her Excellency Brigit Fitzpatrick, the Irish Ambassador to the United Nations in Geneva, was unable to work.

Since coming to Switzerland in February Brigit had been gradually drowning in international implementation schemes, coherence policies, United Nations declarations, regulatory frameworks and piles of other documents which she never had time to read properly. Now, two months later, this rising tide of paperwork was threatening to completely overwhelm her. Her plan had been to spend this short journey browsing through a few more boring regulations, but she was unable to concentrate because of the musical accompaniment emanating from the front of the car. Her eye-catchingly low-cut vermilion jacket heaved as she gazed out of the window and issued a loud and elaborate sigh of frustration.

The fourteen-year-old girl in the front passenger seat, snub nosed and ginger haired, was making so much noise that she failed to hear the warning. This was Brigit’s daughter by her first marriage, Catriona O’Brien. She was holding a copy of the Tribune de Genève, on the front of which newspaper was a picture of Kieran Gamble, Ireland’s great hope for next month’s Eurovision Song Contest. His beloved dark smouldering eyes had ignited in her an irresistible urge to sing his new song ‘Don’t worry my darling, My love will see you through,’ at the top of her voice.

This cacophony was soon accompanied by the tapping of the steering wheel, the humming of a bass harmony and the indulgent smile of the driver, Catriona’s step-father and Brigit’s second husband, balding bespectacled Sam Fitzpatrick. He was prevented from actually singing only by his intense concentration on driving on the right-hand side of the road, for him a novel experience, and having to find his way to CERN without a map. He was looking out for the Carrefour hypermarket where he needed to turn right onto the Route de Meyrin.

Lost in their music and the traffic, neither of them noticed the long sigh that issued from the back of the vehicle, a sigh which should have conveyed not only exasperation but danger. This warning having failed to reinstate silence, Brigit next rattled her papers, then coughed rather loudly and eventually she resorted to screaming “For God’s sake Catriona shut up! How can I work with you making that bloody noise?” For a senior diplomat Brigit still had some rough edges but they were part of her charm, or at least that’s what the Irish Minister for Foreign Affairs had thought when she persuaded him to appoint her as Ambassador. A silence descended on the car and Brigit resumed her reading.

Catriona managed to swallow the angry words which rose in her throat. Since she and Sam had arrived in Geneva last Saturday she had argued with her mother every single day. This morning she had promised Sam she would try to avoid all arguments for the rest of their holiday and the best way to do it, she decided, was not to speak to her mother at all. We’ll be going home soon, she kept telling herself. She couldn’t wait to get back to Dublin.

“She’s just excited, Bee,” Sam said soothingly. He was the great peace-maker.

Catriona breathed deeply and began humming ‘Don’t Worry’ quietly as she tried to calm her beating heart, which wasn’t easy as she stared down into Kieran’s beautiful eyes. She couldn’t read the newspaper of course–it was all in French–so she plugged in her earphones to play his latest album, but the battery was flat.

She sighed and looked out of the window. Sam was driving up a long straight road. It had almost stopped raining and the sky was turning blue leaving just a froth of high spring cloud above the snow-capped peaks of a mountain range that stretched right across the horizon ahead of them. She remembered what her best friend Aislyn had said when she told her she was coming to Geneva: “I suppose you’ll be going skiing,” as if skiing was some sort of punishment. But really she had been green with–

“Oh, by the way Sam,” Brigit said. “I forgot to tell you. I’ve cancelled your flight back.”
The car swerved and Sam narrowly avoided hitting an oncoming bus. “Cancelled the flight?” he gulped when he had regained control. “Why’s that?”

“I need you here. You were right, Sam. This job’s too much for me. You’ve got to stay here and support me.”

“I’d love to stay and help you, Bee,” he said, “but I don’t think my school would–”

“Your school?” Brigit’s tone was colder than the snow on the distant mountains. “Surely you’re not putting a class of eight-year-olds before the interests of Ireland are you, Samuel?”

“No of course not but–”

“Good because I called your school too. I told them you’d broken both legs skiing and would have to stay here resting for the next three months at least. I’m sure you don’t want to make me out to be a liar do you? You can write to them later to hand in your resignation.”

(This note was written to my friend, the poet, singer, song-writer and arranger Chris Hoskins and copied here since it might one day be of interest to a wider circle of readers. You never know.)

One of the aphorisms I found while wandering down diverse avenues of experience during the heady sixties, seeking purpose and direction for my unformulated life, was that “there’s a thin line between self-deception and reality”. I based this on observation of human behaviour, my own and that of those around me. It was this belief which, thirty years later, made me buy VITAL LIES SIMPLE TRUTHS: The Psychology of Self Deception by Daniel Goleman when Bloomsbury published it in the UK. Now, ten years later still, on a cold dark November night, too tired to write, too happy with life to sleep, I pull the unread volume off the “pending” shelf, and find these wise words on page 13:

“It is the courage to seek the truth and to speak it that can save us from the narcotic of self-deception. And each of us has access to some bit of truth that needs to be spoken. It is a paradox of our time that those with power are too
comfortable to notice the pain of those who suffer, and those who suffer have no power. To break out of this trap requires, as Elie Wiesel has put it, the courage to speak truth to power.”

So I begin to wonder what vital bit of truth I am actually communicating in Time Crystal. Now, during the rewrite, is a good time to decide. I don’t expect to influence politicians directly, of course. Politicians, at least those I know, are just ordinary people who are as likely to read TC as anybody else. But we in the liberal democratic West are all empowered by the choices we make as consumers and voters. It is the citizen I must address, but what exactly is the truth I wish to convey?

TC has been designed to tell the history of the Universe as a work of fiction, but if it achieves no more than that it will remain at best an educational adventure story, an interesting amusement. Yet having created this unique frame I now have a blank canvas upon which I should begin to paint a larger picture, a message of truth for those willing to hear. I suppose I’ve always known that. It was the belief that I have something to say which made me decide to write in the first place, back in the late fifties. It was the belief that the history of the Universe was an important background to our understanding of ourselves that made me stop writing and study a wide diversity of sciences during the seventies. The message I want to convey was expressed in Global Vision, my second book, published in 1992:

“Note by the Author
“I would like to add a personal note here. I believe that the world will never solve its problems until it has sorted out its political organisation. A world divided into 200 sovereign states is not a sensible basis for managing a single tiny planet.

“I think the solution is to strengthen the United Nations and build it into a democratic federation of states: a world government. This idea is scoffed at as “pie in the sky” by national leaders, especially those who have most to lose, the leaders of the rich nations. But the world is a pie in the sky, and a very tiny one. Let’s make sure everyone gets a fair slice!

“The purpose of a democratic government is to protect the rights of its citizens. That is impossible in a world of international chaos. Without world government, there is no democracy.”

Global Vision by P.J.Brown, Penny Press 1992

Since that was written, global problems have grown more severe, more obvious, so that (thanks to climate change) everyone is now aware we have a serious global problem. Yet still nobody is talking about a serious solution.

In his open letter to the second General Assembly of the United Nations in 1947, in the shadow of the Second World War, Albert Einstein wrote:

“As the only body competent to take the initiative boldly and resolutely, the United Nations must act with utmost speed to create the necessary conditions for international security by laying the foundations for a real world government.”

To The General Assembly Of The United Nations, United Nations World, New York, October 1947, pp. 13-14 by Albert Einstein

Nobody listened to this vital bit of truth then, and no doubt nobody will listen now: but we must keep ringing the bell.

Yesterday I was rewriting the first chapter (how many hundred times is it now?) trying to control point of view (POV) better, as prescribed by Dr Jarrold. I decided to start with the Michael Riley’s POV, an unsympathetic, eccentric, deceptive character.

This morning I decided that this is never going to work, for two reasons.

  1. The reader wants to identify with an empathetic character.
  2. He assumes that the opening character is the protagonist, or at least a sympathetic person.
  3. Meeting a weird person to start with will put readers off.

So I will write it again today, taking Danny Kissov’s POV. I’ve done it this way before but this time I will make him much more well-balanced. Before he was far too single-minded.

I’ve finally received the diagnosis and prescription from script doctor John Jarrold.
The diagnosis is that the story fails to control Point Of View adequately, that it lacks pace and that most of the characters are one-dimensional, lacking credible motivations.

The prescription amounts to an almost total re-write. The only good thing, apparently, is the basic storyline. I take heart from this, since the basic structure is what the story is all about.

So it’s not quite back to the drawing board, but it is back to the plastering, painting and decorating boards. I figure there are several months work here, maybe another year.

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